first time.

The first time I saw you it was NOT love at first sight as they say. However a feeling came over me instantaneously. The emotion of fear, and most of all curiosity. I had no idea who you were. A cute young girl who walked into my class and sat next to me. I was shy, and confused. I knew you would be someone special and important in my life, but to what extent or capacity I did not know. From that first day to about fifteen I was watching you like an science project, studying your movement, listening to your speech, trying to gather ant information about you. You had transferred out of my lower level class because you were smarter than us all. Day fifteen. I was standing in front of the doorway of my language class. Behind me desks and windows, the blue sunlight poured in over my back. In front of me was a hallway about forty or fifty feet long, with lockers on all sides. By coincidence, your locker was next to mine of the previous year. To my left of my current location and about 15 feet diagonal left. I knew you were coming, I was nervous. You turned the far left corner at the end of the hall, you were with one of your girlfriends, I don't remember who because I was blinded by you. Pure tunnel-vision. It was right there that day, I knew it. The 15th day after seeing you on the first day of school in September. It was eleven in the morning. Eleven ow two a.m. The bell rang. I remember it vividly. It was like a cliche. Everything went silent and slow. Every second seemed like an eternity. The bottom of my stomach fell out when I saw you. A cornucopia of emotions ran through my arteries to my heart. I knew right then. I was totally in love with you. Your blue eyes. Your smile. Your laugh with your friends. The way you brushed your hair over your ear with your stout fingers. Your beautiful brown hair. I was terrified. I had never been in love before that moment. You were my desire in ever sense. The door slammed behind me, I felt the wind blow past my body. The bell was ringing. You slammed your locker and looked at me briefly. You looked right into my eyes and I looked right into yours. Toy turned and ran to your class, your hair swinging delayed behind you like a brown cloak. I was in love with you, I girl I did not know. I wanted to know everything. The bell has stopped and I am the only person left in the hall. Papers on the floor and faint voices from the classroom behind me. I was in love. Tears ran down my face because ilu was so scared of being in love with you, I did not know what to do. That was in 2003 it is now 2011. I have not seen you since 2006. I still love you more than ever. I wish to hold you in my arms, protect you, provide for you. I wish you even considered me worthy of possible friendship, let alone love me back. I wish you loved me and we were married. You are the only woman I will ever marry. Looks like even in my dreams it is not likely. Still I love you