Kill Me.

Well, No improvements. None. I wrote something on the wall of Marie, intended to be a joke, she did not like it. It was not insulting, just weird i guess, i didn't know.  Her suspected boyfriend, oh yea, they are not official, but they are so clearly together, just posts after me calling me a creep. Which is probably true, but he did not have to say that. he then said, he felt bad that she had to "deal with this kid". That Hurt so much. I have to move back to My home state because my roommates are moving out and things are so bad i have no options but to live in my parents basement at 25 years old. I want to cry and probably will within minutes. I feel so alone, I am sick. I feel like all my friends just put up with me, they have to pick me up, i have to call them, they never call me, which makes me an annoying pest, No one ever seems to have fun with me. My job sucks, they treat me with no respect at all after 3 years of working there, i can not pay the bills, which are already very very low. I have gained weight, just nothing good. nothing good at all, one of my 3 friends drank himself into a coma, the other doesn't return my calls and the other, even though we hang out, treats me with a  mild neglect and i just sort of have to follow him around on his errands, sometimes sitting in his room, by myself for 5 hours while he is at work. I should just die, i contribute nothing. I am the worlds biggest loser.