Spat with Marie online.

I had a bit of a spat with my beloved marie online. she deleted me from her friends for no aparent reason, i disputed it. i sort of confronted her, it was quite hostile. I was coragous for a while. somewhat wrong in tone, but i temporarily reconciled the situation. I see no oppritunity after this for a meeting, or even further in depth conversation. sound out she basically dispises me on principle that I care for her. Sent me on a 2 day emotional roller-coaster, still settling.  JUST WTF. I Can not even get a conversation with this girl. I swear I did nothing to wrong her. I need money. Once I have some, i can better my life situation, then buy myself a beautiful bride that i really do not love, to fill an endless pit of sorry. But hopefully I will have a nice car and an industrial gas range with a grill so i can cook my sorrows away. Made beef ribs last night, custom rub and some nice smokey sauce. came out good. details later.